Struggling to Trust and Sunday's Scriptures

I'm struggling to trust God.

Oh, not everything, but some things.

The BIG things.
Sure I have questions, lots of them. So much has happened in the past few years.

But only one question really matters, one posed in the scriptures for this Sunday.
"Is anything too hard for God?"

Sure, I've heard the cliche' "God is bigger than my BIG things." I go to church, I work for the church, I pray, and I even sing songs that proclaim truth.

But ... do I still blow this trust thing? Does opportunity to learn to trust more pass me by without my notice? Do I miss out on what the Lord has for me, just because I can't get my mind and my heart to line up, to 'get my head' around it?

Faith. And another Bible verse rolls in. "Faith is not by sight." And I also remember, Faith doesn't follow feelings. Feelings follow Faith.

This Faith that I am talking about has its foundations on Truth.

And I have Faith. God bestowed it/gifted it to me upon my Baptism. And through His Holy Spirit He causes this Faith to grow. So today, maybe I can't get my head completely around it, and the BIG things haven't changed, and maybe I don't feel so strong in my faith or so trustingly in my Lord, but ... God promised it ... in His Word ... and that grace is enough for today to find this truth:

When Jesus gave Himself to the Cross, He died for me, offered all of Himself to get me right with God, to put my entire life together. Not just this part or that part. But all of it - my heart, my mind, my soul. Whole and holy in His presence.

I don't know about You, but I wouldn't walk away from a gift like that! No one in their right mind would. how could you say, nah, not today? Maybe later. How could you say no to this Man? For by Him, only Jesus, can you stay grounded and steady in that bond of trust.

Constantly tuned in to His Truth ... His Word.

Careful.

Not to be distracted or diverted.

These prayers are from the NIV Worship Bible (page 1588)
I am made complete in the One Who is completely God. I am possessed and embraced by the One in Whose nature is fullness of life and hope and peace. In You, Christ Jesus, Holy One, I am holy in You. Christ Jesus, Peace Maker, I am now reconciled to God. In You, Christ Jesus, Mystery of God, I am now hidden. Only in You is found this truth beyond imagination, this love beyond reason, this grace beyond measure. God is not ashamed of me! What rest, what joy, what unspeakable wonder is mine to know that because I am in You, Lord Jesus, God is proud to call Himself my Father.

(Page 1394)
I thank You that You are not a harsh task master. You did not save me to make me Your slave; nor must I try somehow to 'work off' my debt to You. You want me to serve You from the motivation of love rather than the obligation of duty. And love requires time alone together. Lord, help me to heed Your call to come away from the activities of the day and to sit quietly in your presence and commune with you.

Song by Jesus and Jami Smith :
Come Unto Me, all you who are weary
Come Unto Me, all you who need rest
Take up my Yoke, and learn all about Me
And I will give you rest.

Why do you linger?
Why do you wait?
You carry on without me.
I've always been here
but still you hesitate
I have much in store for you
if only.
You would ...

Come Unto me, all you who are weary
Come Unto me, all you who need rest
Take up My yoke and learn all about me
and I will give you rest.

Yes, and I will give you rest.
Sweet rest.
I will give you rest.