Returning home from vacation, you'd think I'd be full of vigor to get back behind the plow. Well, no. Not sure why, but by the third day back, I was fearing that I was returning to the 'numbness' that day to day living sometimes causes. So on the way to work, as I was watching all the cars turn left, thinking 'zombies, all of us zombies, heading out, even though we suck air - are we alive? Even though we go through the motions, are we truly aware of our impact? It was a sad picture that I was conguering up. So somewhere along the road, I talked to God about joy. Just kind of left it a prayer of 'where is the joy'? and waited for an answer. Later on, through a reading I was brought to an old prayer used by Catholics, Episcopalians, and Anglicans ...
Come, Holy Spirit, fill the hearts of thy faithful
and enkindle them with the fire of thy love;
Send forth thy Spirit, and they shall be created,
and thou shalt renew the face of the earth.
Don't know about you, but when I read it the chills went from head to toe and back up again. Hmmm... renew the face of the earth ... I was sure at least I needed renuwal, so I kept reading.
The book suggested I write my own personal invocation of prayer of inspiration. Right now it sounds more like resurrection from the dead, dire, muck that entrenches my soul in a dry and weary land. But .... here is what the Lord sent me later on ...
Open my eyes Lord, to see the feast you prepare before my heart each day and help me Lord, no, propel/empower me Lord to realize that life is not an out of body experience, but each moment is meant to fully breathe you in and then through the gifts you have given me, breathe you out upon others. Amen. Amen. and Amen!
This has become a part of me for two days. The world sure looks different ... or maybe its just that I am.
Friday, July 20, 2007
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