The Distance Between God and Me

In an email conversation with a worship leader friend, these thoughts ensued ...

"Why is it that when we need Him most, we shy away? I guess that is our (fallen) human nature. I've been praying for a lot lately for supernatural strength because I know I just can't do whatever 'it' is at the moment. I'm totally and absolutely inadequate, but He (His grace) is our sufficiency. I also have times that I sense distance (mine of course) but if I stop and just look around, He's there, He's everywhere.

I also have disciplined (yucky word for some) myself over the years when I 'feel' that way to just pick up His Word, even when I don't feel like it, even when nothing strikes me, because I can't base my life on feelings, but I can on faith in Him, the grace of faith that He gives to me daily. It's all Him, man. And God's Word is full of promises, one of them being that His Word will never come back void - that means it will accomplish its purpose in you (and me). You may not have major revelations at the moment you crack open the book, but in the grand scheme of things, His Word is active ... it's living ... and it's gonna come through in His time.

Sometimes too, its okay to just say "Jesus, I love You, I have nothing to bring to our relationship at the moment, but I know you do, and I'm gonna trust you to that and just love you today, maybe with no words, but just love." And read His words of love to you (remember the song It's gonna be a Red Letter Day?) Think of the times in your life that one of your kids, or your spouse, just wanted to be with you, to love you, with no words ... sometimes my eight-year-old daughter will just get as close as she possibly can to me, no words, often lays right on me, face in my face, and I ask what's up, and she says oh nothing, I just want to be with you. I love you. Takes my breathe away. It's like that to Him when you do that. Just crawl up, shed the armor, surrender everything. I know you'll come away a in a better state of mind, and in a state of grace."